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What to do, what to do…

It’s the question I ask myself most. What should I do? What do I want to do? What could I do?

As I move closer to finding the answer, I feel oddly like it keeps moving further and further away. Therefore, I’m convinced I’ll never really know any answers but I must simply be happy to live my live in the pursuit. I heard a wise man say, “The proof of desire is in the pursuit. The proof of passion is unending pursuit.”

So here I go. Every day I’m in the pursuit. The pursuit of what? Sometimes that answer is different.

Some days I pursue results. I wake up with renewed zeal to tackle my 3-page to-do list. And by golly, sometimes I get everything done on that list. It feels good to have results, to accomplish something….even if it’s watering plants, weeding my garden and getting the Pepsi on sale at Safeway (for my husband, I don’t drink that nasty stuff). Anyway. Sometimes it’s bigger tasks like call my Dad, reorganize my closets, or vacuum the car.

 

Some days I pursue fun. I didn’t make any plans in advance but today I FEEL like laughing and having fun. We get outside or go visit friends. I call that friend that always makes me laugh. Or we make our own fun. No tasks, no cleaning, no solving the worlds problems. We just focus on fun.

 

Some days I pursue feelings. I’m lonely and want to feel loved. Or I’m not motivated so I try and figure out how to motivate myself. I’m sad and need to feel uplifted. Or I’m stressed and need to relax. Some days, I just let my feelings get the best of me. I get overwhelmed and they just take over. (It’s usually only for a day though)

 

Some days I pursue purpose. Man, today and absolutely today I HAVE to figure out what my purpose is. I’ve not felt like I’m making a difference AT ALL. Ok, reality check. Why am I here? What is my calling? Then I proceed to brainstorm and make a plan to end the suffering on the planet. DONE. Check!

 

Some days, ok MOST days, I am all over the place. I’m not one of those planner types that writes down appointments on a calendar. I don’t have a daily routine for my family. I don’t have a cleaning schedule for my house. You could say I just “fly by the seat of my pants”. I’ve come to realize there is an upside to this (I’m super spontaneous) and a downside (sometimes I don’t get anything done…for a week).

 

My plan lately is to work on incorporating all of these into one day. Let’s achieve some results (or my husband will think I do NOTHING)!!! Ok, kidding about that. Let’s do something today that is fulfilling my purpose. Address what feelings I’m noticing and work on not letting them dominate at least ALL my decisions today. Lastly, have some fun. (Usually if I run out of ideas, this means we put on Pandora and have a sing-off and dance-a-thon in the living room).

 

I guess I’ve figured the secret to my life. What do I do? What should I do? What could I do?

Get stuff done

+ sing like I’m Celine

+ cry a little/love a lot

+ change the world

+ never quit

= Happiness + Utter Delight + Tranquility + Satisfaction + Contribution + Life rocks

 

Sounds good to me.

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