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It’s just the way it goes

It would be the understatement of the year to say that my life has been challenging lately. I could go on a rant about what’s been happening, husband’s shoulder dislocation, neighbors flooded our office, etc. But I won’t because that stuff doesn’t matter.

A week and a half ago, a very close friend of ours was killed in an avalanche at Stevens Pass here in the NW. Three were killed that day, one girl survived. You probably heard about it in the news. Chris was a friend but more like family. My husband has worked with Chris at Stevens Pass for 8 years. To say he was devastated by the tragic news wouldn’t even begin to cover it. I was in complete shock when I heard it was one of our friends.

He was 30 and just beginning his life. He was full of commitment, passion and zeal. At his memorial, he was labeled “The Ambassador of All Things Rad.” And that was very fitting. He lived life to the fullest and was an example of making every day count.

In the wee hours of the morning just a week after the avalanche, I received a phone call from a friend that said another close friend of mine was in a coma. And the doctor’s report is not good.

Are you kidding me, I thought. Is this a joke? I can’t take much more. (And on a lighter note, last Friday I broke my big toe.)

What is happening here? It’s called Life and right now it sucks. Some moments I can only stare at the wall. Other moments, I can’t stop telling my husband and son how much I love them. And I can’t kiss them or hold them tight enough. Because if God forbid something happen to one of them right now more than a surface scratch, I am pretty sure I would lose it. Whatever IT is, I would lose it and probably never find it.

I get into ruts. I get complacent. I get lazy. I use excuses.

And I waste precious precious time.

Time that I could be using to reconcile a friendship, to ask someone for forgiveness, to tell someone I’m sorry.

Time that could be used to say I love you, or help someone that is needy, or share kindness.

Now is the only moment we can count on. We may not have tomorrow.

I hate that saying that goes, “You don’t know what you have till it’s gone.” And it makes me angry, but sadly it’s too true.

What do we have in our lives that we are taking advantage of? Sadly, tragic things do happen.

It sobers me up to lose a friend. And to get a second dose in just a short week, it magnifies the sadness and realities of life.

Life can be long, it can be short. What will you do and how will you live?

…ahead lies a fork in the road. I know which direction I will take. There’s no time like the present. We are all subjects of a natural cycle and what we do with the time we are given is our choice.

-Chris Rudolph
1981-2012

We will miss you, friend.

Please don’t give me your sympathy. Chris, like me, would just request that you live your life. Live it loud. Make some noise. Play hard and work even less. Tell the truth, do what you love, and let the world know who you are.

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